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Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change

The courage to change the things I can

And the wisdom to know the difference.

I thought I would start with The Serenity Prayer because I refer to it a lot as it is a great reminder for me to get over myself when things don’t go according to my plan!

At the start of the year I had a number of physical and mental tasks that I wanted to complete as part of a challenge I had set myself. Including a daily cold dip in my pod, 10 minutes meditation, 3 weights sessions a week, running a mile a day and reading 10 pages a day and closing all 3 rings on my Apple Watch.

It was going really well and I had literally only missed a couple of things a couple of times. I was enjoying my self imposed challenge as It had been several months since I had done anything like this.

I went to London  to Nordic walk Hampstead Heath with Joe for his Birthday. It was lovely but I started to feel unwell as we were finishing. We were meeting Nancy at Ben and Chrissy’s later that night for a family meal and a few games around the table…my favourite thing.

I ended up spending the evening in Ben and Chrissy’s bed as I felt so sick!

I woke to them all singing Happy Birthday. I’m gutted that me not being well, coincided with a rare night in London.

I’m also disappointed that I had to face the reality that I wasn’t going to finish my challenge as I wanted to. Some of the things I was on target to complete every single day, especially the cold dip, the mile and the Apple rings.

This disappointment didn’t last long though as common sense prevailed. I couldn’t help being sick and it knocked me out for a few days. It would have been stupid to attempt a run, (would have felt impossible on Friday night!) or a weights session and it certainly wouldn’t have felt the right thing to do to get into the cold water.

I got the train home and spent the whole of Saturday night and all day Sunday on the sofa.

I worked all day from my bed on Monday. My Apple Watch thinks I have died!

A few years ago this would have sent me into a downward spiral after having pressed the giant ‘Fuck It’ button, but I have learnt to accept what is…most of the time.

I don’t give up on my challenge, and I will continue it, it just won’t be a clean sheet at the end. The biggest win is me acknowledging that sometimes stuff happens that you can’t control and it is how you react to it that makes the biggest difference and that lesson is far more valuable that a sheet of ticks.

It is another lesson that you do not have to be ALL or NOTHING and it certainly isn’t ‘Life getting in the way’…it is just life happening and we always have a choice as to how we react to it.

I am grateful that it has just been a bug I’ve picked up and not a bad back episode. I am grateful that I get to choose whether to do my self imposed challenges or not and I am grateful that I can accept what is rather than bitching and moaning about things I can’t control (I don’t always get that one right though!!)

So if you are struggling or if you have already pressed the ‘Fuck it’ button on your good plans, then just know that you do always have the choice, you just may have to make different choices around the things you can’t control.

Just as an aside…if you have been blaming situations or others for whatever it is you are or are not doing then you are probably making the wrong choices.

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